Going MAD's Blog

My journey to find myself…

Well, hello there. November 17, 2014

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Wow. It’s been awhile. I’m not sure what even prompted me to start a new entry and I’m not even sure where to begin. The last time I wrote was in June of 2012. 2 1/2 years later, here I am.

Where do I begin? I guess I should address that last line. It’s true.. I fell in love. And I am still in love with that man. Here we are in May of 2014. On our wedding day.

Anna wedding pics 203

Less than two months after that photo was taken, we found out that two would become three… We are excited to welcome our baby girl to the world in April of 2015.

Life really couldn’t be more different from it was 2 years ago. Some of my priorities have changed but staying healthy is still number one, for many reasons. I have a lot of the same struggles with food that I always have… and battle them every day.

I am almost to the third trimester and have really been having cravings for sugar and carbs. It’s so hard to resist! So, just like I have in the past, I have created a plan for myself. No more eating out for lunch at work. It’s back to packed lunches. No more eating when I’m not really hungry. Grab some water instead! Fruits and veggies are the main course of every meal.

I’ve done this before, I can do it again. This time I have a little one counting on me. What more incentive do I need??

 

Halfway to 2013 June 18, 2012

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Well, I signed up for the marathon and have started training. And I’ve fallen in love. 🙂

 

Back on the treadmill January 16, 2012

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After spending the last two weeks on my couch with whooping cough, I decided to get back to it this morning. I walked 1.75 miles at an incline on the treadmill and did a 15 minute ab workout. I ended up having a coughing fit after the ab workout, which is extremely attractive, but I am glad I did it! I needed to do SOMETHING.

 

Come on 2012! Cooperate, please! January 12, 2012

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So far, 2012 has been less than cooperative. First I was sidelined by a knee injury. Now I have whooping cough. I haven’t been to the gym in two weeks and it is really depressing me!! I think things are beginning to turn around, though. I’m hoping to be back at it (slowly) next week. Fingers crossed!

 

Goodbye 2011, hello 2012 December 31, 2011

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This year has been bananas. So many “firsts”, a few “lasts”, lots of accomplishments to be proud of and just as many setbacks.

The one accomplishment I am most proud of is running my first half marathon. It still blows my mind to think that I am capable of running 13.1 miles. And I not only did it once, I then shattered my time running my second.

The second thing I am most proud of is tied in with one of my setbacks. 2011 was the year I put myself out there. That unfortunately left me open to heartache. But that is life. I still think the tears and sadness (and weight gain) were worth it. In 2009 I wasn’t living. I kept myself in a bubble and didn’t let anyone in because I didn’t think I was worthy of anyone’s affection. In 2010 I was just beginning to figure out who I was. In 2011 I learned that I am worthy of so much. And while I may have received and given affection to a few wrong people this year, they were not mistakes. I got my first taste of what it’s like to have your heart broken. While it SUCKS to feel that way (I’m still getting over it), it also feels good. It means that I am living LIFE. I’m feeling… something.

Enough of that. Now it’s time to set some new goals. I refuse to call them resolutions because those never seem to work out. So here we go. I am putting these goals out into the universe. Hopefully that will give me the motivation to follow through!

1. Reach my goal weight (at least get within 10 lbs). This is going to be hard, but I know I can do it. And my second goal should help with this.

2. Run the 2012 Chicago Marathon. I know you are asking yourself, has she lost her MIND??? Maybe. But I’m going to do it.

3. Pay off my credit card. I have one credit card with a balance and I want to get that to zero by the end of the year. Very doable.

4. Fall in love. I know this is not a goal that I can make happen by training or dieting or making a plan. I know this just has to happen when the time is right. But I feel ready for it.

5. Find balance. This one is kind of hard to put into words, but I want to work on what my trainer calls the “muscle-mind connection”.

So there we go! 2011, I loved you and you broke my heart. I’m ready to start my affair with 2012!!!

 

Feeling giddy November 15, 2011

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Not for reasons you might think. I made a new friend and I am ecstatic!

I’m still getting back into the swing of things and I have to admit, I haven’t been perfect with tracking, but I have definitely gotten better. I had a bit of a binge on Saturday night, fighting a bit of boy-related depression. See, I go right back to eating my feelings. Evidence, once again, that I will probably always deal with that. Oh well. Back to it.

So yesterday I planned to run with the Oak Park Runners Club and I was dreading it all day. It’s not that I didn’t want to run or that I don’t like the club. It’s that by 630 at night… I am freaking tired and am just feeling done with the day! All I wanted to do was lay on my couch and watch television. BUT I told myself, you HAVE to get back into your routine! I hadn’t run with the club in three weeks. So, as my friend Penny says, I put on my big girl pants and headed out.

I ended up running with another woman who was new to the club. It was her first week. We chatted beforehand and realized we run about the same pace. And the best part? She is British. Having someone to run 5.5 miles with is great. But running 5.5 miles with someone who says things like “That is rubbish!” and “Are you mad??” is even better. It’s brilliant, as the Brits would say.

 

October… What. A. Month. November 2, 2011

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October is gone. I can’t believe it. It was a pretty exciting month. I gave up meat for the month and didn’t stray  once, although I was tempted! I ran my second half marathon and trimmed 14 minutes off my first, which felt amazing. I had a brief romance that I am pretty sure is over, but was really fun and felt nice while it lasted. I also pretty much fell off plan the entire month. My thoughts and focus were elsewhere. I am not going to apologize for it. I am not going to dwell on the few pounds I put back on. I am going to look back at October of 2011 fondly… and move on.

November is a new month. A fresh start. That is what today is. I am back to tracking and working out and remembering that while focusing on other things is often necessary and important, I still have a goal I want to accomplish here. So November is going to be the month of balance. Having fun, dating, running… and staying on track! Those are the goals!

Monster Dash Half Marathon 2011